Love. It is a tricky subject. Other than Jesus Christ, I don't think anyone understands its ultimate meaning.
There is this man who has been pursuing me for roughly four years now; at first he pursued me for one year then we had a relationship for a year but then we broke off because it turned out we weren't ready for each other yet. To cut the story short, he's single, i'm single and now he is pursuing me again. He's okay. I think the feelings i had for him before were just buried down somewhere in my heart and now that he wants to get back together again, my feelings are, well, resurfacing again.
One of the reasons i broke up with him was because of lies. Not so harmful yet frequent lies. It was enough to break my trust and fear for my future if ever i ended up with him. Now that i am considering to get back together again, i seem to occasionally disregard the fact that i still fear the tendency that our relationship will be built in mistrust. I disregard because my feelings of wanting to get back with him becomes stronger by the day. However, the thing is that it becomes stronger not because of growing love, but because of all the wrong motives.
He is a great guy, he can provide for the future that my family needs and would need, he makes me feel secure. He's near perfectly ideal. But the problem lies within me. I am clearly not ready yet. To be in a relationship entails each partner to help each other grow in all aspects of this life that God gave us; My idea of relationship is not at all that mature yet.
I need him to wait longer. Because not until i mature should i allow myself to decide with regard to these very important matters.
There is this man who has been pursuing me for roughly four years now; at first he pursued me for one year then we had a relationship for a year but then we broke off because it turned out we weren't ready for each other yet. To cut the story short, he's single, i'm single and now he is pursuing me again. He's okay. I think the feelings i had for him before were just buried down somewhere in my heart and now that he wants to get back together again, my feelings are, well, resurfacing again.
One of the reasons i broke up with him was because of lies. Not so harmful yet frequent lies. It was enough to break my trust and fear for my future if ever i ended up with him. Now that i am considering to get back together again, i seem to occasionally disregard the fact that i still fear the tendency that our relationship will be built in mistrust. I disregard because my feelings of wanting to get back with him becomes stronger by the day. However, the thing is that it becomes stronger not because of growing love, but because of all the wrong motives.
He is a great guy, he can provide for the future that my family needs and would need, he makes me feel secure. He's near perfectly ideal. But the problem lies within me. I am clearly not ready yet. To be in a relationship entails each partner to help each other grow in all aspects of this life that God gave us; My idea of relationship is not at all that mature yet.
I need him to wait longer. Because not until i mature should i allow myself to decide with regard to these very important matters.
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