My last post was about a heartbreak that i thought I'd never get over with. It slipped my mind to explain the story behind the title so I am just going to spend a few paragraphs here to talk about it.
Almost Lover is a song by A Fine Frenzy.
It was 2010, I was still in a relationship with my high school classmate but our relationship was really rocky at that time. Then there was this other guy who I will hide by the name Joe. Joe was being my comforter during my rocky relationship and to cut the story short, I fell for him.
So I was listening to the song on the radio when he called on the phone, and I told him about the song and how much I can relate to the lyrics "..Goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dream.." Joe and I got so emotional cause we both knew we couldn't be together because I was still in a relationship.
That night and a lot more nights passed and the problems I had with my boyfriend made our relationship shatter to the point that it was not reconcilable anymore. And as expected, Joe and I became a couple. My relationship with Joe was nonetheless smooth except for the fact that we kind of had to hide it.. That seemingly little factor turned out to be a really big deal because of the deep reasons behind it, and I think that that, our loss of accountability to the public, was what eventually tore us apart.
The other parts of the lyrics are "..should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do.." True to that!
Anyway, as I write now, I am proud to say that I am done and over with with this break-up. It took me 2 years which was a really long time, but I am glad because I know that I have become much stronger than before. My mind is now clearer about the silly notions of love I thought I understood so well. I think this experience has also taught me a great deal about maturity. And I am grateful. All throughout my emotional turmoil, I know God has been molding me and He finally gave me rest before I reached my breaking point!
The relationship I had with Joe, especially the part where it ended was a stage I needed to go through. I found out that I had an obsession that I had to get rid off because it was ruining me. There are still traces of this obsession in me but this experience helped me cure a big part of that obsession. And like what grade school teachers usually say, "That's the lesson for the day." but I guess in my case, for 2 years.
Almost Lover is a song by A Fine Frenzy.
It was 2010, I was still in a relationship with my high school classmate but our relationship was really rocky at that time. Then there was this other guy who I will hide by the name Joe. Joe was being my comforter during my rocky relationship and to cut the story short, I fell for him.
So I was listening to the song on the radio when he called on the phone, and I told him about the song and how much I can relate to the lyrics "..Goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dream.." Joe and I got so emotional cause we both knew we couldn't be together because I was still in a relationship.
That night and a lot more nights passed and the problems I had with my boyfriend made our relationship shatter to the point that it was not reconcilable anymore. And as expected, Joe and I became a couple. My relationship with Joe was nonetheless smooth except for the fact that we kind of had to hide it.. That seemingly little factor turned out to be a really big deal because of the deep reasons behind it, and I think that that, our loss of accountability to the public, was what eventually tore us apart.
The other parts of the lyrics are "..should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do.." True to that!
Anyway, as I write now, I am proud to say that I am done and over with with this break-up. It took me 2 years which was a really long time, but I am glad because I know that I have become much stronger than before. My mind is now clearer about the silly notions of love I thought I understood so well. I think this experience has also taught me a great deal about maturity. And I am grateful. All throughout my emotional turmoil, I know God has been molding me and He finally gave me rest before I reached my breaking point!
The relationship I had with Joe, especially the part where it ended was a stage I needed to go through. I found out that I had an obsession that I had to get rid off because it was ruining me. There are still traces of this obsession in me but this experience helped me cure a big part of that obsession. And like what grade school teachers usually say, "That's the lesson for the day." but I guess in my case, for 2 years.
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